doubting myself

[elkatie]

"Moan alert, just needed to get this off my chest, no need to reply."

Maybe because I'm ill and fed up and my plans for my 4 days off went out the window, but I'm starting to think my website will never happen. I work full time and shifts at that, so time is a luxury for me, so the prospect of 4 days off was great, I told myself I would finish off the site and pics and finally get it off the ground. Till I got sick this weekend.

I'm typing in tears convinced I'll never do this, everthing is against me right now. I just wanted a few days to get my things done and up, but no, now I'm feeling ill and cant get on. Dh is going round ironing and housewoking with a face like thunder, I guess because hes cross I'm ill and not doing all the house work on my time off and he has to do it.

Oh I just feel like giving up and accepting my crappy full time job is it for ever.

[lajlaj]

Oh big hugs to you, I can empathise with you as I'm trying to get a new site up and running but it has taken me months and months to load the products and I just don't get any time to work within the business as I always seem to be doing so many other things - ie, we are moving house and I've had to do all the packing, before that it was a big project I was working on for many months that turned to poo so I spent literally months working for nothing. It is all very frustration isn't it?

I've now adopted a policy of 3 a day - rather than try to run, I'm trying to get just a few products uploaded a day - so it means that I'm making tiny progress but at least I'm moving it forward even if it is only a tiny bit at a time.

Take it easy, hope you're feeling better soon.

[Arianna]

*HUGS*

First of all - I really hope you are feeling better soon.

I think a lot of us feel like this. We all seem to have a giatn list of things to do but we never ever manage to accomplish them because something else comes along.

I know it's frustrating but you need to get some rest so you can get better.

*HUGS*
Arianna

[partybabe]

Honestly it is mostly because you are feeling poorly. I am having a spell like this too and have lots of them!
Try to look at the reason why you want this business to work, I alway feel better when I refocus on my motivation (for me it's my girls) and as suggested break the list down into small tasks - when you tick them off it will make you feel so much better as you will have achieved something!

[Jewalker]

Hope you feel better soon.

Jane Walker

[choice]

everything seems so much worse when you are ill. You need to give yourself time to get over whatever you have and then put into place a realisitc plan. It isn't good to set targets that aren't achievable, it makes you feel a failure which you clearly aren't!

[megfenn]

:kisshands: Hope you feel better soon.

[elkatie]

:kisshands: Thank you for the support. Well, I'm feeling a bit better today, some odd virus or other I had, so looking at it a bit more clearly today.

My problem is the web site, I hate it, it dosnt do what I want at all so I have two choices, go with it and hope everyone else dosnt hate it as much as me, or wait till I can afford for someone to design what I really want. Sadly with my electric company dumping me with a £500 bill I wasnt expecting (whole other thread 2006argh ), a DH worried about the sell off of his company and job security and a DS off to senior school with all the new uniform ect, etc, I think what I really need is out of my price reach right now.

So what to do? I really dont want to just stick up the site up, knowing it would annoy me to shop on it, and loose customers or put it all on the back burner till I can save up. I think I know the answer its just not what I wanted, I was so excited about starting this up. Oh well thats life I guess?

[choice]

in what respect doesn't it fit the bill? Could you get an ebay shop while you sort it maybe?

[Millymoosmum]

Sometimes it gets so tough - financially, particularly in the current climate - juggling everything we have to do as Mummies, wives, women.....it's not easy. Not made any easier when you feel poorly. Chin up - I can absoloutely PROMISE you we have all been where you are.....we all have moments when we really doubt what we are doing, you need to find the strength within you to say this is what I want to do - I do not want to be stuck in a crappy job forever, try to prioritise what you do in the evenings.....even if you only devote 1 hour a night to your setting up - you will get there eventually, and it will all be worth it. You have to be realistic about it and set yourself managable targets.....try not to get too caught up in wanting it all here and now, because it's impossible to work like that.

Good luck x