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DragonLove
03-01-2008, 09:42 PM
I'm so tired all the time its unreal!!

I go back to college on tuesday, where I go full time.....

By the time I've finished college, walked to the nursery (its not a college one) picked the kids up, walked home, its normally about 6pm, by which point Poppy (6 months) is normally screamin because she's tired and wants to go to bed, and I have Alex, my 2 year old, crying at my feet because he's hungry/thirtsy/tired/wanting attention, I have to struggle bathing them both making sure they've had enough to eat and drink then carting them to bed all on my own.

When I've done all that I then have to sort out my own tea (I've been living off ready meals lately as I dont have the energy to stand and cook) my dinner for the next day, do a quick run of the housework, THEN (if) when I have finished all this I then have to contemplate doing homework which, with the course I'm on, is normally a list of a4 of things that need to be done, and being on and AS textiles and diploma in fine arts course, things are not as simple as just getting a bit of research!!!

That and with being woken up several times in the night by BOTH kids I'm constantly exhausted at the moment, they've only been in bed half an hour and I have had to listen to Alex 'laughing' to himself for the majority, who has now woken Poppy, who is now crying!!

I feel like crying, I'm not even back at college yet and I feel like I've got no free time to myself, I cant even remember the last time I was able to sit down with a nice brew and sit and watch a film without worrying that I'm not doing something!!

I asked my mum the other day whether she could ask all the old dears at her work, if one of them would knit Poppy a cardigan if I paid for the wool etc. and my mum so no, that if I wanted her to have a cardigan I would have to knit it myself. No one seems to understand that I literally do not have ANY free time to myself, my whole life seems consumed with everything else!

Sorry for the moan, but no-one seems to understand, I've tried talking to family and friends about it, but I get useless remarks or unrelistic suggestions, and I honestly feel like I'm gonna be carting myself off to a funny farm the way things are going ATM!!

Jessica x x

-Joy-
03-01-2008, 09:47 PM
Wow reading all that Jessica wore me out!

I wish I had some good advice, but I dont sorry :(

Theres no way you can slow down at all ?

X

Jacks Aunty
03-01-2008, 10:02 PM
Oh blimey!
No wonder your exhausted.
If I could knit that well I would do a cardigan for your daughter !!
I really dont know what advice to give sorry xxx

DragonLove
03-01-2008, 10:08 PM
I could quit college and concentrate on the kids until they were a bit older, but thing is I'm 25 now, and although I'm still young, I fear that if I put of doing this course for a few more years, I may never go back, and my dreams of one day being a fashion designer and selling my own clothes will never happen!

I sometimes wish that I could have a break from the kids, even just to catch up on some sleep, but its not possible, DP is a HGV driver and works away from home, and none of my family live around here, none of them were happy with me going back to college anyway, said the kids were too young!!

*sigh*

Jessica x x

-Joy-
03-01-2008, 10:13 PM
I know youv probs heard this, but one day your dream will be reality and it will all be worth it.. as they say, no pain no gain.
:kisshands:
xx

angelcake71
03-01-2008, 10:31 PM
awwww ((hugs)) I felt worn out after reading that!! hmmm not sure what to suggest really,as there are only so many hours in the day....bear in mind tho,the kids have been away from you all day 5 days a week, and their dad isnt arround either as he`s away working....they just want attention! personally if your dp wasnt away working it would be easier for you to go to college......IMHO I feel you should put it on hold ....perhaps till they are at school.....

Girlzmum
03-01-2008, 10:40 PM
Hi Jessica and welcome!

I'm studying full time as well (doing a nursing degree) and juggling it and my girls can really wear me out. When I started my youngest was 8 months and my eldest was 3, she had just started nursery, I'm nearly half way through now and there are times when next August feels so far away especially over the last few months, I've been so run down and exhausted so I do sympathise.

All I can say is to keep your eye on your goal - when I feel like I can't go on I think about how I would feel if I didn't have my nursing, I absolutely love it and don't really want to think about leaving.

I'm sure that when your dp is home you want to stay in with him but it is worth letting him stay home by himself for one night so you can let your hair down with your friends from your course as it will boost you no end.

DragonLove
04-01-2008, 11:13 AM
Feeling a bit better this morning, didn't get to sleep till 2.30am, but none of the kids woke me up all night, so even though I've not had much sleep, it was unbroken so much better than normal!!

Think I'll have to start having a few extra early nights and not worrying so much about my housework/homework etc.

Jessica x x

angelcake71
04-01-2008, 11:19 AM
yes that will help.....