Re I feel terrible post

[anonymous]

Still posting anon so it doesnt show up in the search engines (hopefully) but it was me ( h el en . bro ad hea d )
who posted the message.

I gather people will soon know as I have taken the advice and are putting a note on my site, so everyone could see it was me anyway. Thanks everyone for the support and help, I didnt expect so many reponses and I am truly greatful.

I feel ashamed, upset and angry with myself. Things have just got out of control.
I posted anon as I am sure everyone is fed up of me now, moaning about different things and I am so greatful for all the help this forum has given me and I felt like I have made 'friends' and I am so worried my moaning will stop people helping me!

I have hit rock bottom this week and I am ashamed of myself. I have done things which I never thought I would do. I am normally so organised (except for accounts!)with things and I have done things family wise which I would never do and I am so hurt and upset that I have done it but my mind isnt with me and I couldnt help it. (they are just little things to others but big to me)

Its Joshuas birthday on Saturday and I must be able to have the weekend off for the things we have planned and I must be able to go the full 2 days without sitting in tears which I have everyday this week.

Things will get better next year as I wont be painting anymore. It is the painting which has caused all this as I cant up to the demand and been ill has just lost me 2 weeks worth of work.

Anyhow I have said enough. I probably wont be around as much until all this is over and Christmas is over too as I am a bit like a zombie at the minute and walk around in cloud coocoo land, and dont quite know what I am doing from one minute to the next.

Sorry again for being such a paint the ar*e, I really dont mean to be cryingsmil 2006sorry

[wokkies]

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[amandaj]

you havent been a pain in arse ,try and take some relaxing time now next year will be a good one you see xxx

[Olive_Oil]

you havent been a pain! just make sure you take some time out and relax. :kisshands:

[BellaMiller]

H - you're not a pain! - I'm sure you've seen just how many of us posted to help you out - even not knowing it was you! And I bet if you'd posted your name even more would have come forward!

the only way is up and you are definitely on your way now - I wish you all the best for Xma hun - take care :)

[Chell]

Sorry to hear things have gt so bad. Are you a member of the private section? Posts in there won't show in the search engines.

Hope you get things sorted and can enjoy your DS birthday/Christmas.

:kisshands:

[Seren]

:grouphug:

[babybiz]

(((((hugs))))) just take a step back hon and do what you can, the rest you will just have to let go and it's not your fault.

[Tinkabell]

:kisshands:

[Netty]

Enjoy your weekend and Christmas.

If I can help you out with any admin, I will.

[MerrilyMe]

Hugs,

It can be incredibly tough; i hope you feel better soon.

[nicholamarie]

:kisshands: your not a pain in the arse. i just wish i could help that goes for anyone who is close to me, i will help with whatever i can.

you are doing the best thing by taking a break and i really hope in the new year after a well deserved rest things will be brighter for you.

[willowcat]

Take care , Helen and try and have a good rest ,hun.:kisshands:

Sharon x

[Mary Poppins]

Oh Helen, please don't feel that you are being a pain. Most of us get bogged down with things from time to time and sometimes feel we can't cope.

Instead of looking at what you have got to do as a whole, as Miranda said, break it down into small manageable sections and you will feel as though you have achieved something.

Get yourself sorted first though hun, take time off, have a good rest over christmas and come back fighting.

Have a lovely christmas.

[KeznJay]

As every one has said u are not a pain, we are all here for u. As i said if i can help pm me. Even if its just to scream and shout. :kisshands:

[bloomingfelt]

I can only echo what everyone else has said - you're not a pain and you mustn't feel ashamed of yourself !!! You've been doing a fantastic job and so what if it goes off the rails a bit (especially at this time of year). I've had to mark absolutely loads of my items as out of stock (especially in my NOTHS shop) because I just can't cope with making anymore stuff, so know exactly how you feel.

Once you've had a proper rest, enjoyed Christmas and New Year and are feeling better you will be able to see exactly what needs doing and be able to sort things out.

Just take it easy and like everyone else, I'm here if I can be of any help at all.

Take care xx

[lajlaj]

Coming to this late, sending you lots of get well vibes and if you need anything you know where I am (although my own back is up against it right now due to huge volumes of orders still).

[storm35]

Am on msn if you ever need me, :kisshands::kisshands::kisshands::kisshands:

[knotjustjigs]

just to echo what the others have said sweetie...hope you have a great weekend with your son. I am not a million miles away if you need any help hunni :) give me a shout...

Ketty x

[funkydorydawn]

You're absolutely not a pain -far from it.

I echo what all the others have said - take the time off and try and recover.

It sounds from your posts that you're really stressed at the moment - only the other day you posted and sounded really positive and excited about your future plans, yet now you're right at the bottom. I'm not sure what they can do (if anything), but have you talked about how you're feeling to your doctor?

:kisshands::kisshands:

dawn
xx

[ann0024]

Still don't know who this is but I sure do admire her for having the balls (well not balls really) for saying the things that some of us feel every day of the week but don't have the courage to say. Have a great Christmas and enjoy your weekend, i will be thinking off you as we a celebrating our dd's birthday this weekend. Enjoy!!!!

[friendlybaby]

I'm glad that you feel that you can open up a bit more to us all now, and hopefully understand from everyone's replies here that we do not think of you as being a pain at all. We all hit rock bottom some times, and we are all here for when that happens to any one of us.

Obviously I'm a complete numpty when it comes to the things you create for your site, but if there is anything else I can help with please, please, just ask.

Wendy x

[boys3]

Sending big hugs to you. Coming late to this post, reading it sent shivers down my spine as I remember how I felt approx. 4 years ago. New baby, temporary class leader recruited so I could have maternity leave who never turned up, bad back, lively preschooler and people wanted me to smile in class!!!!!!! I cracked big time just before the xmas. Shut the business one sunday afternoon and reopened 6 months later when I felt I could cope, bigger and more profitable than ever. The majority of my customers said they appreciated me 'coming clean' and shutting rather than giving a rubbish service and stayed loyal.

Enjoy your weekend, get some rest, enjoy xmas, and it really will work out because your work is just SO great.

Elizabeth x

[feistygal]

Come to this late hun but just wanted to say that I can only agree with what the other have said.

Shutting the site for new orders sounds like the best idea and I really hope you feel better soon.

[naturalnursery]

You are not a pain at all - hope you have a lovely weekend.

Axx